Also, some people have been adding their links and comments to the Inaugural Edition of TSMS. That's great except for one thing... no one else can find it unless they go back to that edition. You need to link your post to the current week's TSMS Mr. Linky. Otherwise, I'm the only person who sees it unless someone is going back through old posts.
By the way, some people are still linking to their blogsite and not to their TSMS post. What happens when you do this is... if people are looking through Mr. Linky on Sunday, and you have a new post up on Sunday, they have to scroll down to get to the TSMS post. To link to your specific TSMS post, click on your title so the TSMS post is the only one showing on your screen. Then, copy and paste that url into Mr. Linky. Clear as mud... good. Seriously, if you have questions on how to do this, just email me and I will try to help.
OK... now down to business. This week I'm featuring Selah. I have two wonderful CD's to give away by them next week. One is Hiding Place and the other is Greatest Hymns. So, I'm going to highlight a song from each CD this week.
The first is "Be Still My Soul." I love the words to this song. They have really spoken to me tonight as I began to look for a song to post from Selah. In the middle of all our craziness and busyness this past week, Spencer had more seizures. We had to administer his rescue med again last night. The seizures have been really out of control lately. And I can't get a doctor's appointment until the end of October.
Today I sort of reached the point of feeling completely defeated. I pretty much always have a good attitude about dealing with epilepsy and try to keep the viewpoint that God brings something good of every trial we must face. I know this to be true, but today, I didn't feel it.
There is only so much a mama can watch her child suffer and not start to get mad. Today I was there... feeling mad, and overwhelmed and not quite sure what to do. I really didn't even want to pray about it. I'm sort of all prayed out at the moment. I spent the day trying to stay distracted with errands. I felt if I let my mind go there and I got into a conversation with God, it wasn't going to be pretty. My grandma taught me if you didn't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all... so basically I wasn't talking to God at all... because I didn't have anything nice to say.
Have you ever been there? I was basically just being rebellious and resisting God. I sort of felt paralyzed with fear. I've always kind of thought in the back of my mind, "it's going to get better." You know, kind of like getting over a cold. You can console your child when they are sick with a stomach bug or a head cold that it will pass, and they will get better; but today, I really just lost hope. I thought to myself... "it's never going to get better." I was hardening my heart - being stiff necked. And we know what happens to stiff necked people right?! (Exodus 32:9)
Then, tonight as I was listening to these praise songs by Selah, my heart melted. I was reminded of Exodus 14:13 Moses answered the people, "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."
The very people who had held them in bondage and slavery were pursing the Israelites, God's chosen people. They felt trapped, paralyzed with fear... but they were exactly where God had led them. They became scared and cried out in anger to Moses against God. And Exodus 14:13 was how Moses answered them.
I was reminded the LORD is on my side. He will fight for me. I need only be still in Him. My job is to bear patiently the cross of grief or pain that is mine. He has led me to exactly where He wants me. I am to leave it to Him to order everything that happens and to provide just what I need. He is faithful. The waves and winds of every storm still know His voice rules them. He controls them. Listen to the words...
Be Still My Soul - Selah - Greatest Hymns
The other song I want to highlight is "All My Praise." It reminds me I am to praise Him not only in green pastures, but through darkness, pain and in the valley. He is Holy. He is Lord. And He is worthy of All My Praise!